21 February 2009

A year ago, during the exact same month, I was busy preparing for my upcoming wedding in April. During this period, nothing was rosy anymore between Hubby, then fiance, and me. We were literally biting each other heads. We couldn't communicate at all. Everything was blown out of proportion. Hmmm, I didnt even want to get married! Ok I guess all brides to be experience this. It was bad. Very bad! We even stopped talking to each other. I had my friends and my sisters to relay the wedding plans or any messages to him. We did not even meet up at all. No sms-es even! We had a cooling period before our wedding.
Only on that exact day of 26 April 2008, that was the 1st time we see each other after 2-3 months of not talking and meeting. 2 months from today, I will celebrate my 1 year being a wife, being Mrs Andyshah. Our 1st year was not a bed of roses. We had our trials and tribulations of life thrown at us one after another. Hurdles and hurdles came to us...We remain strong, altho I nearly wavered. But my husband never once wavered. He was there, being himself, being strong and being positive...He always always never fail to tell me, "This is our 1st year. So it is definitely going to be hard. Insya-allah, come our 2nd year, it will definitely be better." Oh, celebrations for the 1st year? I don't know. I thought I want to go for our honeymoon (we never did get to go!). This plan is subjected to the husband's confirmation. Boo hoo hoo! Right now, I am interested in my birthday celebration! I am 26 this March, and celebrating as a married lady! So dear husband, it better be good!
We still have not gotten a house yet nor am I pregnant. I am surrounded by alot of friends and cousins who are pregnant and some have already given birth, but baby dust has still now come our way. People have said when you don't think about it, it will come but I am sorry I kept thinking of it. How not to think about it, when your're surrounded by newborns n babies alike. Hopefully, with 2009, I would have a house and perhaps, just perhaps, baby dust comes my way..In the meantime, I enjoy being just the two of us! As for a house, I am keeping my fingers cross that everything would go smoothly. I have given up on buying a new house from HDB. Am getting a flat from the open market i.e. resale.
Currently, I am now busy with work. My office is relocating to SGX Centre. It's a neither here nor there office, I called it. I am also now dealing with a fickle minded management. They keep changing the dates of our move. That' the reason why I say, fickle minded. Hopefully, this Friday falls through. Hahahaha. If not, we'll operate from nowhere...

Actually I have lots of plans in 2009. A house, a baby, a better me, a better wife and oh becoming a housewife...Ermmm, yes I really have given a serious thought to being a housewife. A temporary one. I think I need a break. A good break. To plan my future. Our future. However, with the recession, I am afraid I have to say "Goodbye" to being a housewife... But yes, it will always be at the back of my mind.
I have lots to write about and in fact I wanted to blog about V-day weekend. Maybe in the next post. So hopefully, this update will make do.
Till then...goodbye..

29 October 2008

Hello there!


Ooohh I've definitely come back unscathed by everything.. No worries. It's all okay now! Sometimes ignorance is bliss~


So what have I been up to? So far, I've attended a couple of open houses for Raya, 2 weddings and a karaoke nite with my maternal cousins. That's about all. And Raya visiting has officially stopped. Hang up my baju kurung already! Now I believe it's the start of the wedding season...


Anyway, here are some of the pictures....More of them are in my Multiply..



Raya Visiting



Wedding





Karaoke Nite








03 October 2008

Selamat Hari Raya!

And so this is my 1st eventful hari raya with my husband. How was it? Very eventful! Yup celebrating it for the 1st time at another house. Nope I did not cry. In fact I enjoyed it very much. Told Andy that I don't think I am ready to move to a new house all by ourselves. Yes you heard me right, I think I enjoy staying with my MIL. For the 1st time ever also, I followed my MIL for Aidilfitri prayers. Very syahdu la. Cause, for this raya, there's alot of firsts for me. Heh!

On to a different thing now, why is it that we all are prejudiced towards men who earn less than their wife? Earning less than their wife does not equate to them being less responsible towards their family. Afterall husbands are the family heads.

Why is it that only during Hari Raya we ask for forgiveness? Why not on any other days when we have realised that we have made mistakes? You mean only during Raya then you ask for forgiveness for all the mistakes you've done for the past year? And then repeat the same mistakes the following day? Does that make us hypocrites then?

Are parents necessarily right? Are they always right? Are they never wrong? I am confused. What are the responsibilities of married women towards their own parents ? Who's their first priority? Husband or own parents? High expectations on children will make children feel as if a huge boulder has been put on their shoulders. Soon, that boulder will become a burden they carry throughout their life. And soon, that boulder will also turn to become a disappointment for the parents. Is that fair then? Oh heck, life is unfair.

I am not in the right state of mind now. Things are pretty awful for me now. As I say, life is unfair. What do you expect? I am now hitting the bumps, potholes, cracks and whathaveyous in my journey of life. Thus, I am badly bruised now. Will return when I am partially recovered.

Till then!